No Memory, "Numb Pain With Pain"

My tongue tied, no voice to utter words

No power to express the emotions swelling

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For fear had crept in,

And my remembrance tattered,

A flash of incidents that seemed not to matter.

Rendering my thoughts useless and dull,

A past night that held forgotten meanings,

For I only heard the echoes of my own breathing.

Awoken by the cold morning,

And the stinging that writhed down my veins,

For my eyes see the cuts and bloody stains.

No memory of what had become,

How the agony had begun,

For it had ended as soon as it began.

Leaving only lingering pain,

And the recollection of the tears,

That drew lines down my face.

For fear had crept in,

And my memories tattered,

A flash of incidents that seemed not to matter

In truth they had become,

Moments...

That I do not remember.

Locked behind a door...

Concealed...

Forgotten...

To protect myself from getting hurt.

"NUMB THE PAIN WITH PAIN"